"Formally Submit Application?"
Nah, that phrase isn't daunting at all. But I did it. I submitted my application and now all I can do is wait. Wait for a response to my application for a scholarship to study abroad in Italy in the spring, my first experience out there in the great big world.
You know when you have an incredible desire in your heart, so exciting and powerful that you just can't believe it won't come true, but you also know you must repress it so that it won't hurt as badly if it doesn't come true? That is the worst kind of desire, because it's also the best.
I'm generally someone who follows the flow of things, never having a strong opinion about anything in particular, or in the very least never expressing any opinion I may have. So to be strongly attached to this idea of the possibility that I could go to Italy is relatively new to me, which makes it all the more exciting.
So I must wait and hope. But I also have the assurance that even if I don't receive the scholarship, I will have the opportunity to go there someday. Even if it's not for a while. If it's not for a while, it will still be worth the wait.
Hoping and searching for the sunshine. . .
<3 Mel
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